So a lot has happened since May!!!! I am sooooooo much happier. It is absolutely amazing how differently I feel. A lot of people have noticed too. You can tell in my pictures as well. I just have so much peace now. A peace that I definitely didn't have when I was with Gabriel. I am able to love myself. It has been really nice!! I have been able to actually go to church and not feel like an outcast in my own home. I don't feel judged for going to church. My testimony has grown a ton!!! I have a calling in my ward. I'm on the relief society meetings committee :) I started dating a new guy. Woo hoo!!! He's absolutely amazing! And super handsome!! He is LDS too which makes my life super easy when it comes to church things!!!!!!! I have lost a ton of weight and actually care to take a moment for my appearance. It has helped with my self worth a lot! I feel better about myself...inside and out. My house stays clean now!!!! I love being home! I can feel the Spirit in my home and it is a lot more comfortable to just sit and be there. Before, I couldn't stand to be at home. I always had to be somewhere else (mostly at Lisa's). But now, I don't need to escape. I am safe and happy at MY home!! I'm working on getting my health back. I am working out fairly regularly. I am trying to eat mostly vegan again. I do have my moments where I really just want some meat on my Chipotle bowl....but other than that...I'm pretty good about sticking with it. I definitely missed how good I felt eating clean. I have lost a total of 43 lbs so far!! Woo hoo!! It's crazy! I have gone from an 18 to a 10!! That was from last September. Since May, I've gone from a 14 to a 10!!! All in all, the best thing that I've gained out of this whole thing is my self worth. A happiness that I didn't have before. I love the internal peace that lives in my heart now. I don't know how I ever lived without it. I really wasn't living...I was absolutely miserable every single day. I didn't realize how bad I was until I actually stepped away from my situation and started living how I was supposed to. I am loving my life now and I hope it only gets better from here! :)
